Alright ENOUGH!!!

The holidays are finally behind me and I can sit down for a moment and take a breather! What a hectic year! I don't think I've ever attended so many parties, and ran around like a chicken with my head cut off! I've hardly had time to do anything for myself at all, but the new year is fast approaching, and I plan on getting my ass in gear and FINALLY completing the revisions I've been working on for many months now.

This past year has been incredibly hard on me, trying to get my strength back, return to a regular writing routine, and getting my personal life back in order. My health issues caused me to lose a lot, and it is only in recent months that I've felt strong enough to actually join a gym and push myself to regain my former self. My legs were so weak, I could only walk a short distance before pain would creep in and force me to rest. The hysterectomy damaged me in unexpected ways. I couldn't sit for long periods of time, but I also couldn't stand. My whole body ached and the medication caused me to bloat. I ended up on heavy duty pain meds, which made me practically useless. Psychologically it did a number on me.

I had gained over 30 lbs, and lost muscle tone. I've always prided myself on having great legs, strong thighs, and shapely calves. I used to joke that I could choke a man out between my thighs...*insert dirty line here*...But it was true! I've always had a sporty physique and natural curves based on maintaining a high fitness level. Then cancer reared its ugly head, and surgery cut me down at the knees, err, legs. I literally couldn't hardly walk for about 6 months. My legs turned to jelly. But now, well now I'm back and feeling much better!

I have a trainer now, and she's kicking my ass! Sure I've lost a lot of strength and it's going to take some time to get it back, but I'm not going to allow excuses to enter my mind, and my New Year's Resolution is to gain back my figure and my strength by my birthday, May 11th! My other goal is to have my book ready to go by this spring as well. No more procrastination, no more laziness, no more excuses.

By the way, I wore my hair down for the first time at a Christmas party. Before I'd been slicking it back into a stubby ponytail and wearing a drawstring piece to add length. I debuted my new hairstyle, and it was funny, everyone thought I was wearing a wig! LOL! My hair is officially touching my shoulders, and I cut my bangs so I looked like a China Doll. It is very thick, black, and glossy. Anyone who knows me, knows how I felt about my hair. It is coming back and I am starting to feel like my old self again.

So, I know this post sounds like complete vanity, but unless you've gone through this yourself you cannot fully appreciate how much this stuff affects you, like it did me, on so many levels. I'm back, I'm feeling good, and the new year is going to be AMAZING!

I hope yours will be too.

~Robin